I’m scanning through what I’ve written above, and thinking that it doesn’t really give much detail about mood changes, as that would require going into much longer articles, which I’d like to do if I have time. After Friday, I know that I could easily keep this blog full of detailed posts about the different thoughts I have, and my thoughts about those thoughts, but that this could soon get stuck into its own never-ending loop, and that’s not what I’m trying to achieve here. So before I go back and go into any details about the previous four days, it might be better to jot down a few notes from earlier on today, and to carry on from there:
· Driving to the bike shop — wanting to hit the accelerator when a classic tune comes on the radio.
· At the swimming pool — can’t really be bothered to do any swimming.
· Supermarket checkout — is that the healthiest trolley load I have ever purchased?
· As I write this diary update, why is my energy waning?
· Will I get anywhere near the amount of content I created on Friday? I’m not really trying to do that, I’ll be happy with half that amount, as long as most of it goes to my commercial website.
· Come to think of it, and I still going to be awake in 15 minutes? My mood is fine, I’m just feeling tired, but I haven’t had my caffeine injection yet today. I’m not sure how well that blue cheese (the one food sin that stayed in the trolley) agrees with my system, but it certainly tasted really good!
· Should this text be put back in paragraphs, or is it nicer to break it down into bullet points like this. I quite like using using the bullet points, and I generally find it easier to read text that is broken down in this way. I should never forget that a lot of people with wandering minds have very short attention spans. The only problem is that it is a bit of a nuisance to format when transferring from Dragon voice recognition into a WordPress blog.
· I’m just want to keep sitting here until four, then I might get the caffeine shot out. I might feel tired, and I might be making a very late start, but at least I can give myself a little pat on the back for the fact that I’ve already done my exercise for the day. I still don’t fully understand how swimming, including going to the jacuzzi/steamer/sauna impacts my mood and energy levels, but at this time of day I’m usually scrambling to get out of the house to make it there by four, which is the latest time of peak members can go, so the fact that I have finished my swim, gone to the supermarket, had some lunch, and sat down to write content by now isn’t actually too bad going at all.
· I am reminding myself that I am often slow to get going, no matter what time I start. Even when I start with a seemingly massive burst of energy, this often fizzles out after just a few minutes, and might then take a couple of hours before I really get back into the swing of things again. As I was out all day yesterday, today is effectively the first day of the week, so I could still be having a short dose of Monday morning blues, even though it is Tuesday afternoon.
· I should point out that as I dictate this, I’m trying to report on how I felt at different times across the last five days, and that if I get a chance, I would like to go back further than that. So it is only natural that I’m reporting on different moods at different times, but on the whole the last few days have still been extremely positive, and when I have had down periods, this has been due to tiredness, rather than any kind of depression. I mean come on, anyone would be knackered after cycling the equivalent distance of three marathons, so it is no wonder I’m feeling a bit groggy after going for a swim.
· (15:53) – Ok, that is enough for now, the blog post which was going to follow this doesn’t really make that much sense and I need that recharge.